Contentment

This weekend I had the pleasure of spending time with some of my Zimbabwe team members. We all met in DC to surprise our team leader for her birthday. Its crazy how close we have become through only the one trip to Africa. A 9 hour bus ride on Friday there and a return 9 hour ride back on Sunday was so worth the short time we had together! I am the youngest member of the group by a few years and they love to remind me of it. I just honestly am so thankful that God allowed me to meet each of them! I sat at dinner tonight wondering how in the world I was in the company of such amazing people! The things that God is doing through them are, well God sized big! The opportunities and doors He is opening to them, to us, continues to completely amaze me. Actually, it is so much, and so awesome, I struggle knowing God has called me to medical school. I would be content right now to drop out of school and work with them the rest of my life! I long to become even an understudy of the people in my company tonight. I long to know the cultures they do, understand how to reach the world like they do. I have so much to learn and so much maturing to do. It is easy for me to get frustrated looking at so much more schooling ahead of me before I can move over-seas, but I guess it will take 7 more years here for me to prepare for where God wants me to go. Tonight, I would leave right now and go wherever God said. Tonight, I would go to the most dangerous places, most uncomfortable. I would leave everything here to go. But God hasn’t called me there tonight, as much as I would love to drop everything and leave. Right now, He has called me to Knoxville TN, to the university of Tennessee, to the women’s soccer team, and the Iraqi community there. The mission field in front of me is ripe for harvest and God has been gracious enough to drop me in the middle of it. But my heart, my heart is over-seas and longs to be with people of another nation. My heart longs to reach the unreached, every tongue, every tribe, every people and every nation. But first I must reach my people and my nation. As much as I love being around these amazing people, laughing together, and hearing their stories, at the same time it is so hard for me! I know the opportunities in front of them are SO BIG and I get SO excited for them, but that’s not for me right now. I need to learn to cheer them on from the sideline of their game, while I faithfully play in my own; even if theirs looks like more fun. I don’t like it, not right now at least. Don’t get me wrong I love working with the soccer team and I love the Iraqis, it’s just hard for me to not jump in on what is right in my face speaking my heart language. I pray I will learn to set myself aside. Life is not about me and what I want, ever. So why would this be any different? I need to be content with where I am in life and glorify God to the best of my ability right where I am. I pray I will leave the future to Him and focus only on what He has laid in front of me. Maybe one day He will allow me to be apart of what He is starting now in body, but I know that I can at least join in prayer with them and hold the ropes as they go where I cant. I praise Him for allowing me to be where I am, I praise Him for what He is doing all over the world, I praise Him for allowing me to know these people, and I praise Him for His sovereignty in all of our lives!