Confessions of a 4th Year Medical Student
Just over five years ago I spent much of my Christmas break from college wrestling with God over the decision to go to medical school. I never really wanted to, and I really didn’t want to put in all that hard work for such a long time! Yet, God has instilled in me this overwhelming desire to obey; so strong that despite not wanting to be a doctor, I began the journey towards medical school. I knew that’s where He wanted me and I saw His blessing and His hand the whole way. Yet, deep down inside me I always had this fear. A fear that I didn’t even want to admit to myself and so every thought was quickly pushed back down. This fear began to surface when I started my 3 rd year clinical rotations. At that point I thought I wanted to do family medicine, but, during that rotation I was so bored that the thought of doing that the rest of my life scared me greatly. I was so afraid that I would put in all this work and accumulate all this debt and then not love what I was doing. But did t...